going to have a short post. school life is really boring. i hate it alot. things aren't going well nowadays especially since that day. i'm really stress with studies now and family problems. i do not know single thing on maths physic chemistry. aiyah basically all the subjects, and i think it's somehow to late to study now. i regreted sleeping in class every lessons instead of paying attention to the teacher. i regreted skipping tutions for don't know how long. i regreted alot of things. life ain't easy. if it is gonna continue like this, i rather end it now. it's hard...

1 more days and he's back. very happy man :D back awhile and he's gone the next day again... haha, better than nothing lol.

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jiaming bestfriend: haha, my blog no link alr(:
LuvJ: hahah sure. yeah posted that on comp lab! <3
Shanette: hey luv, nah not really, sometimes i scared that he find me irrtating. understand how
you feel. well cheerup yeah luv, i'll be always be there for you:D come out one day it had been soooooo long since i last went out with you!
JILLIAN HERE MANZX!

Jillian Loves you, Rememeber That Alright Sally?!?!?!?!?!?
must remember me, ALWAYS.
andi luv someone else V.MUCHIE!~
you should know who!
i'm his property FYI!
but i still love you(:
i'll meet you at ROM:D
last night hang aroud with bill and co. they were really crazy. haha, they're the best okay. play truth or dare. somethings happened and i don't wanna mention. reach home, online and chat with mama.

today i woke up around 11 plus. studied awhile and went down. hang around with bryan & co. felicia called me and ask if wanna dinner. ended up i can't as sis in law & luv is coming over. i think they are gonna play majong. should i join in or should i go sleep?

end of year exams:
5th october- social studies & chinese listening comprehension.
6th october-english paper 1 & 2.
7th october-maths paper 1 & geography.
8th october-chinese paper 1 & 2.
9th october-chemistry.
12th october-physic.
13th october-additional maths
14th october-math paper 2.
15th october-art.
16th october-no paper, party:D

i haven't really started studying yet, infact i haven't even copy down all the notes. i wanna pass all my subjects. i wanan get promoted to sec4. how i wish that i'm in express so that next year i can leave this school. i can't wait until i graduate. the day i graduate, i swear that i'll party like some crazy woman. and i guess i'll be happy after i graduate. life in secondary school just simply sucks.

it's like second day w/o him, i'm dying alr. now he is not in singapore, i dont even bother to put my handphone beside me or bring around whereever i go. how are you? i'm missing him like hell seriously. 5 more days;

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Robin: haha, thanks uh-.- gang up and throw me inside the swimming pool. malu you know!?!?!
LuvJ: haha, i removed all.

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i'm missing you like hell nao. i miss you. i wonder if you're okay. i wonder if you are asleep now or awake now. i wonder what you're doing now. how're you? oh fuck, i'm like suffering from depression now.



no matter what, i'll always be right there for you when you need someone to talk to or when you've problems. i'm always just a phone call away from you. I can't deny the fact that i luv you because i really do luv you. You're the only boy who i luv more than myself. i never ever fall deeply like this before. i never ever missed a person like this before.
happy birthday seanlow (:

morning online and did happened to post awhile. than went of to tution, okay alex andre and jovan never come. so means only got me ivan keith and fion. class was very quiet w/o them. and i was also not really in a mood. keep wondering what're you doing and where are you. later on meet felicia at coffebean wanted to study but ended up never. went to donut factory for lunch. slack and talked there. later on her dear came and went to eat kfc with him as he wanna eat. walk around to search for felicia cake. trainned back and i rot at home.

it's only been like less than 24 hours and i'm missing you like hell. everytime i think of you, i don't know why i will cry. how are you now? i've got alot of things to tell you, you know. i feel weird if i dont text you. come back soon alright. i miss you more than anything else. 6 more days and i'm counting; iloveyou.

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karen: thanks man, hahha yeah hope so.

Labels: i miss you

talk to him at 12 plus. i'm gonna miss him like hell seriously. can't sleep for the whole night as i scared i overslept. 7.29 recieve his message saying that he's going off, idk why when i read it i suddenly cried. takecare alright and have fun okay. i'm gonna miss you every moment. Luvzx

anw,

HAPPY BIRTHDAY QIUYING(:

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Grace: hahha you're really very random.
r(_)K@\/\/@: lol, thanks uh, first time people say me smart.
everything i do is for a reason. sorry.

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LuvJ : hahah thanks bby <3

Labels: sorry

You never were and you never will be mine. Nothing hurts more than realizing he meant everything to you and you meant nothing to him. All I know is that I'm lost without you. I miss you more than you'll ever know. People tend to ignore the ones who adore us, and adore the ones who ignore us. Trying to forget someone you love is like trying to remember someone you never met. Love is a word that gets thrown around a lot, and when I say it, I wanna mean it. I luv you.

Pig, you're going for shanghai trip tmr. Takecare and enjoy there yea. I think you are gonna happy that i won't text your for like one week? Haha, better takecare and i'll miss you like hell. Luv ♥.

End of year exams are comings and till now i don't have mood to study. Some things are just bothering me. Why people can be so happy but not me? Why they can be with their luv ones but not me? Why they can have a perfect family but not me? Why they can be so perfect but not me? Why they can last long with their boyfr/girlfr but not me? Why? If my life is gonna continue like this, i rather die now. I'm sick and tired of it.

Luv, i know how you feel. We're on the same boat nao lol. Well cheerup alright, i'll be always there for you. Last night have a h2h talk with you, haha it was really the first serious talk we had ever since i know you. Thanks for being there when i neeed you manzx, and let's be strong. As you said, it take two hands to clap so yeah.. There's nothing much we can do.

And thanks to people who cheered me up. Thanks for all the nights and text message that y'all send me. Thanks yew:D

Lastly, iloveyou pig.

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ElleLee: haha, thanks bby <3
Shirlene: hahha it's alright.
LuvJ : sure, hahha i'm still waiting bitch.
r(_)K@\/\/@: lol, i know who're you alr. why dont want put your name?
fatinah: thanks baby(:

Labels: but magic is an illusion., Love is just like magic

don't feel like blogging. i need peace and i need him now.
i finally know the answer.

i just want a little spot light on me from you. no matter how hard i tried to give up, it doesn't works and i does not want to give up too. yup, as you said that it's impossible between the two of us, but i'm still willing to try and to take a risk. you never try, you'll never know. i'll bare will all the consequences. i only want you, that's all i wanted.


glad that i've slept properly last night and woke up quite late today. it's like around 11 plus? went down to meet luv and have lunch with her. it rainned, yup i luv rainny days. sit down and chatted at one corner and saw a cat. so i went over to sit beside the cat, luv asked me not to go near if not later the cat scratch me. than i was like nvm la, wont one. then i sit beside it, than suddenly it just up and sit on my lap, than i was like O.O scared me. than she laughlaughlaugh there. went back home after that, dont know where mom go as the house was damn peaceful. where should i go ltr? party or river? idk where to go.



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ElleLee : haha yea, it was very long since we met up. what happened to you & him? same case again? haha yea, also got alot of things to tell you also. hmmm, later uh, see how alright (: luv you manymany too.
Mandy: hello(:
well, time flies. holidays are ending soon, how i wish it won't end. life is gonna back to normal.



morning went to movie with dad. g-force. was quite cute. later on bused over to pig hosue today. watch orphan with him, was boring. his dog is really damn cute. guess what, i fall in luv with the dog, i went to kiss him haha. slack around and went back...
Guess what i did today. haha, i studied today cos i was really bored till i've got nothing to do at all. Luv come over to accompany me, thanks aye. But in the end i still fall asleep. Now i really hope miricales can happen.....

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QIANWEN: haha iwant him only, dont want you(:
anw,

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SHIRLENE (:

hope you enjoy your day alright:D.
iwanthim.iwanthim.iwanthim.iwanthim.iwanthim.iwanthim.iwanthim.iwanthim.iwanthim.iwanthim.
iwanthim.iwanthhim.iwanthim.iwanthim.iwanthim.iwanthim.iwanthim.iwanthim.iwanthim.iwanthim.
iwanthim.iwanthim.iwanthim.iwanthim.iwanthim.iwanthim.iwanthim.iwanthim.iwanthim.iwanthim.
iwanthim.iwanthim.iwanthim.iwanthim.iwanthim.iwanthim.iwanthim.iwanthim.iwanthim.iwanthim.
iwanthim.iwanthim.iwanthim.iwanthim.iwanthim.iwanthim.iwanthim.iwanthim.iwanthim.iwanthim.
idontknow why i'm so crazy over him. now idk anything but i only knwo that i have fallen for him & i want him. :(

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delia : haha yeah, i'm going.
r(_)K@\/\/@: LOL, you're?
LuvJ: hahah, you miss me so much aye(:
i dont wanna fall in luv. seriously idw at all. i dont want. i dont want. i dont want. i dont want. and i seriously dont know why my eyes are damn pain. what's happening to me. fuck, zzz

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delia : hahah nah, not tired. yeah camp was fun(:
QIANWEN: lol haha.
i suddenly see bright light in my life HAHHAHAHHAHAHAHHAHAHHAHAHAHHAHAHA. i'm veryveryveryveryvyer happpyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy!!!!! HAHAHHAHHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAH. Okay bye.

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xingjuan : thanks alright(:
anyway,

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO AMZAR :D
deaddeaddeaddeaddead. i'm deadddd. i dont wanna mention why lol. deaddeadeaddead i'm deaddddd!!!! i miss camp alot :( and finally i'm sick. but now sick also no use cos it's holiday. zzz. okay byeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

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QIANWEN : haha okay sure. i'll do it asap(:
I'm back from camp. Camp was really very fun. I learnt quite a number of things during this camp. Althought it's a 3 day 2 night camp, i really enjoyed it alot. I'm missing it now.

Day 1
Was quite boring cos all the activites are like quite normal as in not challanging enough. At night we have a chance to see Share tent with qiuying sutheng felicia siew hwee & qianwen. Qianwen & jillian swap. Inside the tent was like very hot and i couldn't sleep at all. Went to canteen at around 1am and sit there wit qianwen. Some of the people was there too. Ltr on got ppl shout " Instructor alert" Then all of us all zao. Around 15min ltr, i cn't take the hotness so went to canteen and told boyfr that i'm having stomach pain. HAHA. He went to help me take hot water from the restrurant. Mean while, shanon chatted with me. He told me about his life lolol. Then boyfr come, chatted with them. Shanon went to sleep first, left me & him. Talktalk, then he went to sleep. Left me alone ._. Stay awhile and went around the tent there. Saw xin tang?? , he is very nice haha he lend me his jacket and talked with him. Ltr on his friends come so chatted with them also. Then it is like gonna 4am , so walk around and stuff. Later on accompany fahimah they all wash up and stuff cos i've got nothing to do and it's very boring :( Then ltr on zueol accompany me and we both two fall asleep awhile in the canteen-.- We a bit looser lol.

Day 2
Morning wash up and stuff. Then have breakfast and prepare for our camp fire piece. Then went climb all the way up to waterfall. It was really very tiring i swear. I'm the first one to attract the leeches. A bit sad case right LOL. But heng i realised on time. We got a chance to splash water and stuff. Then went back to camp site. Was very tired. Then is some water activity again. By that time, me and felicia was alr like going to die. Then wash up and dinner. Prepare for camp fire but in the end cancled. Only two of the express come back early, the rest come back late as they were stuck there or smth? The last class come back at 1am? Slept at the canteen with jillian qiuying and suteng and it's really very shiock. Lie down alr, 3 of them fall asleep liao-.- But i slept at 3 and morning was very colddd.

Today wake up around 7. Pack up and everything. Help to clear up and took pictures. Then headed back to singapore. All of us were very tired. The bus was like very quiet. Reacheed singapore around 130. Something happen and idw mention. Mdm teo fetch us to j8 and went to find aloy they all. Me aloy and yq went to around the whole j8 to find the instructors but cannot find. Chat there and went up to 3rd floor. Saw the instructors LOL. We forget to check out hagen daz and they were there lol. Went to the corner there to chat with felicia kaixin and aloy. Went home around 545.

Well, that's all for camp. I super miss it now. I learn alot of thigns about my class and some importance thing. Sec 3 camp was the best camp.



HAPPY TEACHER DAY :D

Yesterday celebration was fine, until i see her fuck face, my mood totally changed. I'm quite lazy to elaborate about the celebration. Took some videos of the teachers acting. Will upload next time. Take our report book and bus to j8. Went to lido and bought the 145 ticket. Went to pepper lunch and lunch there. The movie was reallyreallyreally damn intresting. 5/5. The whole theater was packed and the chair can boucne here bounce there one okay. Me and aloy climb over the chair when we went to toilet. And it make us laugh our ass off. Then went to ion walk and ate mango flake and hong kong cafe. Then went home, slept. Later on, went down meet bill & co as they wanna come find me. Slack at the swimming pool there. Have h2h talk with bill. Feel much more better after talking to him. Well, thanks people.

Morning was packing my room. Now then i know how dusty and untidy is my room. Pack from 10-2.00 -.- Idk why pack until that long lol. Okay i'm veryveryveryveryvery pissed off after someone telling me about this particular person, whom i never thought that she will bitch about me. Well done yeah, you amazed me. You think you know how to predict future? Oh, then please pay more time predicting yourself when you're going to get back all the revenge and when you are gonna die. I fucking not happy with you now. Your usual way, no friends=steal friends. Is that what you always do? You dont feel ashame of it? You dont know how to find? Mother never teach you? o.o If never, i'm happy enough to teach you^^ FUCK OFF FARFARFAR. NABEI. You make me lost everything, i will make sure you'll lost everything also. Bitch better becareful. __

Tomorrow is camp alr. Hope i have fun and hope i'll enjoy. Sorry for being bad to you lasttime. But i'm happy that we can patch up(: